Posts Tagged ‘getting older’


My Mother's Lilacs 2008

My mother was a fairly flexible person, certainly not strict.  But when it came to holidays, there were traditions that had to be followed.  My sister and I would chime “Tradition!” from “Fiddler on the Roof” while preparing the relish tray for Christmas Eve.  Looking back now, it was amazing we didn’t get booted out, but my mom did have a great sense of humor.

The funny thing is, those traditions are what I live for on holidays.  I don’t follow them as elaborately as my mother did, and I have added a few of my own, but they’re what make a holiday a special day.

In the same vein, rituals were one of the elements of organized religion I found boring and meaningless.  Today I find them significant and reassuring. 

I’m sure this comes from getting older.  I see it less now as something to cling to than something that enriches our life.  The beauty lies in being able to choose which traditions and rituals we honor and not being forced to practice them.  They must speak to our heart and soul and not be performed in a rote manner.


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This weekend I took part in Jennifer Louden’s virtual retreat.  I did only two of the live calls, however, because on Saturday I didn’t feel well plus there were toll charges.  They had the recordings up in about an hour afterward though, so they were immediately available at no phone charges.  I think if I had listened to every one my brain would have been overloaded.  I just can’t process as much information as I used to.

I was feeling anxious on Saturday about the way I was feeling because I have gone to the ER more than once with similar symptoms.  I found the only thing that really relaxed me was listening to a recording of ocean waves.  I  later realized that hugging and petting Cubbie would have probably have done it, too.

I treated myself to some lovely flowers and added my candles called “hope, dream, and love”.  Next time I will add my story beads “clarity and balance”.  I plan to retreat for at least a day once a month, and adding some home spa treatments.  I also sat outside for the first time in months which I really enjoyed.  I noticed my parsley and oregano are coming back despite the cold nights because of the unusual amount of rain we’ve had.  Ahhhh, life is good.

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